Hard Lessons for American Midwife Volunteer in Haiti

Nursing and midwifery students crowd around to observe as midwives help a woman deliver a baby. (Photo: Jenny Asarnow)

Nursing and midwifery students crowd around to observe as midwives help a woman deliver a baby. (Photo: Jenny Asarnow)

If you’ve volunteered in Haiti, we’d like to know what lessons you’ve learned.


Haiti is in desperate need of skilled medical workers, a need exacerbated by last year’s earthquake. Many Americans have volunteered to help, but in a place where basic needs go unmet and security is tenuous, those volunteers can find that the skills they have to offer aren’t enough.

This is the story of one American who volunteered in Haiti and the hard lessons she learned.

A Desire to Help

Erin Curtiss is a midwife in Seattle. She is 34 years old, has sharp blue eyes and a raunchy sense of humor. She lives with her two young sons and her girlfriend.

Erin, who runs her own home birth business, recently learned of an American nonprofit organization called Midwives for Haiti. She found it on Facebook.

“I’m being asked to help, and I can help, and so I will help,” she said. “And it is just as simple as that.”


Haiti has a desperate need for midwives. Women in Haiti are fifty times more likely to die during childbirth than women in America. One big reason is there aren’t enough medical professionals to deliver babies.

Erin says she has always wanted to help where she is needed the most, so she volunteered to go to Haiti for one week.

She traveled to a little city called Hinche, in Haiti’s Central Plateau. She came to volunteer at the public hospital, where patients are crammed into long rooms with no electricity, and where the windows and doors are open to the air – and the mosquitoes and flies and lizards that come through.

Back home, Erin only deals with uncomplicated pregnancies, but here, women have extremely high blood pressure, anemia, even cholera. These are the sickest patients she has ever seen, and the hospital staff doesn’t seem to have enough time for anyone.

Erin came here mostly to train midwives, but now that she sees how much needs to get done, she wants to do more. So she makes a generous offer. She’ll work the night shift, when there are fewer midwives on staff.

Night at the Hospital

“There’s really so much that doesn’t get done here, so I think there’s plenty to get done tonight,” Erin says as she arrives around 9 p.m.

The maternity ward is completely full. Families crowd the spaces between beds and listen to their radios. Thirty-three women are about to give birth or just did, and there are only two nurse-midwives on duty: Adeline and Denise.

Adeline and Denise are graduates of Midwives for Haiti’s training program. They both smile, but they look strained. Adeline says this is their seventh night working. She hasn’t slept in a week. “God sent you,” she says with a laugh.

Erin and the Haitian midwives deliver a baby. Then Erin checks on the sickest patients.

Around midnight, Erin gives medicine to a woman with dangerously high blood pressure, but it’s not working, and she doesn’t know what else to do. “I’m almost to the end of the syringe full of meds,” she says. “When it’s done, I’m going to tell the midwife that it didn’t work.”

But the Haitian midwives are nowhere to be found. They’re asleep in the labor and delivery room. They lay down sometime before midnight. Erin realizes she’s on her own.

The hospital is dark. A bunch of young men are standing in the courtyard. A lizard runs up the wall. Dogs turn over trashcans.

Erin goes to check on her patient. As she switches on her headlamp, the light illuminates a bucket – a chamber pot – beside another woman’s bed.

“There’s a lot of blood in that bucket,” Erin says with a gasp. This woman is hemorrhaging. It’s one of the reasons so many pregnant women here die.

The woman’s voice is faint. She says she gave birth six hours ago – just before Erin arrived. She may have been bleeding that whole time.

“Her uterus is full of blood and probably has clots in there,” Erin says. “I’m going to need to get them out.”

Erin tries to stop the bleeding, but she’s worried.

She is also frustrated – that Adeline and Denise are asleep.

“You would think that there would be some kind of protocol set up for every two hours, somebody does a round,” she commented later. “And as far as I could tell, that wasn’t happening at all. Here are people who are trusting you to help them, and you’ve abandoned them.”

It’s not until after 4 a.m. that the Haitian midwives finally wake up. Erin gets the woman’s bleeding under control, but when she leaves the hospital at 6, she is still on edge.

“That was positively horrible,” she says. She realizes that her Haitian colleagues are overworked and need sleep, but she can’t understand why Adeline and Denise didn’t check on their patients, especially the woman who hemorrhaged.

Hard Truths

A few days later, after Erin has gone back to Seattle, the Haitian midwives explain what happened that night.

Denise and Adeline say one of the reasons they slept is simple: they were exhausted. But there’s another reason they don’t check on the patients at night. They’re scared to go into the courtyard where the patients’ rooms are.

“We are women, so we can’t go out of the labor and delivery room to check on the patients,” Adeline says through an interpreter.

“Haiti is a dangerous country,” she continues. “We don’t have light in the rooms. Even if you had a flashlight, you’re two women. After midnight or 1 a.m. you can’t check on the sick because of the lack of security.” Adeline and Denise say not long ago a girl was raped in the hospital at night.

In a place where women desperately need midwives, these midwives can’t do their job right because they don’t feel safe.

Later, back in Seattle, Erin reacts to the midwives’ explanation.

“That makes me sad to hear,” she says. “I was too stupid to be scared.”

Erin knew there would be a lot about Haiti she wouldn’t understand, but now she realizes that things were even more complicated than she expected. She went to help fix a problem – too many Haitian women die during childbirth – but she found that simply training more midwives isn’t enough.

“It doesn’t matter what kind of protocols you have set up if you’re afraid of being raped,” she says. “I don’t know what the solution is to that, though.”

Erin has returned to delivering babies in Seattle, at comfortable homes where every candle is in place and the perfect music is on the stereo. She is grateful for how easy things are here.

But Erin still thinks about the women she met in Haiti. She knows she doesn’t have the answers to Haiti’s problems, but she plans to go back and try again.



Jenny Asarnow traveled to Haiti with support from the International Reporting Project.

Discussion

17 comments for “Hard Lessons for American Midwife Volunteer in Haiti”

  • http://www.theworld.org The World

    If you’ve volunteered in Haiti, we’d like to know what lessons you’ve learned. Share you thoughts here.

    • Anonymous

      I’ve worked in many Third World countries. The experiences changed my life. However, I had an epiphany when I was in Haiti a year and a half ago, something seemingly so simple and intuitive, yet the lesson had escaped me after so many years abroad, and perhaps a hint of First World arrogance.  I visited various hospitals, including a maternity hospital in PAP. As I walked down the street, wading through trash, looking out over the culverts running out to sea, full of garbage, pigs and dogs, the stench, the traffic, the unrelenting heat, the unemployment, the poverty – the question that I had asked myself dozens of times before, in so many impoverished countries, was finally answered. “Why do these women continue to have baby after baby, when they know the despicable conditions they are bringing their children into?” Because, because you foolish American middle class woman, when you have nothing, what else is there? We have no homes, we have no cars, we have no education, we have no jobs, we have no respect. But what we do have, is our children. 

      • Anonymous

        A lot of these women have no access to birth control.  In a country like Haiti a women does not say ‘No” to her husband.  Many are victims of rape.

    • Anonymous

      I volunteered in general clinics in rural areas of Haiti in 2010 and 2011.  I plan to return in March of 2012 as well.  I identified deeply with Erin’s reactions to her experiences there.  After 10 years of this type of volunteer work in several different countries, I found my own cultural disconnect, which always exists to some degree when one is functioning in a culture other than one’s own, to be very difficult to overcome in Haiti.  In fact, I don’t think I have been fully successful yet, but I will continue to try to find ways to connect and understand so that I can offer whatever I can in a culturally sensitive way.  Just because one has difficulty culturally doesn’t automatically mean that one is culturally arrogant.  Sometimes it just is hard (on both sides) to really understand each other and move forward together in full understanding and unity.  But, it is important to keep on trying.

    • Anonymous

      Haiti is complicated. When you enter into someone else’s land, you must tread lightly.

      As American’s, we have a tendency to think that our way works best. As
      our own maternity crisis continues to be masked by convenience and
      profit, it should cause us all to pause…and ponder.

      I spent four heart wrenching and glorious weeks in Hinche, Haiti. My
      nights, were frequented at Saint Therese Hospital, with the roaches and
      mice. I spent my days venturing to remote mobile clinics. I had the
      honor of caring for and teaching pregnant Haitian women. I assisted
      surgeries, resuscitated premature babies by head lamp, and treated
      eclamptic seizures…at times, all in one night. When you can rest, your
      ears are drowned by the cries of whalers that have lost a loved one
      from the TB or AIDS wards. You feel hopeful and hopeless. I sang praises
      in Creole during the four hour church services, fed and loved orphaned
      babies at the Azil, I laughed and cried, I praised and cursed God.
      Babies die in Haiti. But, it’s harder when a mother dies. It crippled
      me. Sends tears down my cheeks, my voice still quivers, and my hands
      shake to speak of it. I never do.

      In fact, it is hard to be a Haitian in Haiti. And I wanted to know why.
      In spite of bordering the Dominican Republic, and less than 700 miles
      from Miami, this country seemed isolated. Haiti leaves you questioning
      your own life and political views. A country whose desperately needed
      savior, John-Bertrand Aristide, was silence by the United States. Our
      military trained and armed Haitians under the corrupt dictatorship of
      Jean-Claude Duvalier. It’s important to understand where Ayiti has been,
      in order to fully appreciate the people and culture.

      Many Midwives For Haiti volunteers have a hard time functioning in the
      hospital. By nature, we are problem solvers. And there are BIG problems
      to be solved! There is no water in this hospital. Often, there is no
      power. Doctors are scarcely found. We are doing home birth on high risk
      patients with little or no equipment. Frustrating, yes! But, we are
      there. And we are all they have. Our hands, our hearts, our faith. For
      now, that’s how we solve the problem.

      I implore more midwives, nurses, and doctors to serve…to be merciful
      and kind. Go with a smile, a tender touch, eyes to observe, a heart to
      lose. Indeed, you will see Haiti.

      “We have not reached the consensus that to eat is a basic human right.
      This is an ethical crisis. This is a crisis of faith.” Aristide

      I am a home birth midwife from Seattle, WA

      • http://www.facebook.com/MarijkevanRoojen Marijke van Roojen

        Carmen, Thank you for your post. In “quaker speech” we would say: “this friend speaks my mind”. I am an out-of-hospital-birth midwife in Wisconsin, moved from WA state in 2008. Have spent some time working in Haiti, hoping to return this April (my daughter is finally a US citizen and can travel across borders again), have not been back since right after the earthquake. Have an adopted daughter from Haiti whose mom died from complications of childbirth, so feel so much kinship with the women and families in Haiti. So much to learn, always. So much room for humility. My mother used to say a quote from someone else that went something like: “do not just do what you can to give immediate relief, but work to change the underlying causes of suffering, do not just work to change the underlying causes of suffering, do what you can to give immediate relief”. I am sure I am butchering the quote, but I think the point is clear. My thought as a health care worker and educator is that in addition to offering direct service ourselves, and addressing inequities in our own country that impact both our women and families  as well as other countries and real people in those countries, find out what the people you serve want. Leave lasting hope behind through education and tangible support. If this is rape relief and protection, do it. Support the education of the next generation of Haitian midwives. Thanks to everyone on these posts for their work toward that end. Marijke

      • http://www.facebook.com/MarijkevanRoojen Marijke van Roojen

        Carmen, Thank you for your post. In “quaker speech” we would say: “this friend speaks my mind”. I am an out-of-hospital-birth midwife in Wisconsin, moved from WA state in 2008. Have spent some time working in Haiti, hoping to return this April (my daughter is finally a US citizen and can travel across borders again), have not been back since right after the earthquake. Have an adopted daughter from Haiti whose mom died from complications of childbirth, so feel so much kinship with the women and families in Haiti. So much to learn, always. So much room for humility. My mother used to say a quote from someone else that went something like: “do not just do what you can to give immediate relief, but work to change the underlying causes of suffering, do not just work to change the underlying causes of suffering, do what you can to give immediate relief”. I am sure I am butchering the quote, but I think the point is clear. My thought as a health care worker and educator is that in addition to offering direct service ourselves, and addressing inequities in our own country that impact both our women and families  as well as other countries and real people in those countries, find out what the people you serve want. Leave lasting hope behind through education and tangible support. If this is rape relief and protection, do it. Support the education of the next generation of Haitian midwives. Thanks to everyone on these posts for their work toward that end. Marijke

    • Anonymous

      I am a nurse who volunteered with Project Medishare in September 2011. I could so relate to Erin’s story about night shift in the hospital becasue that is what I worked too. The Haitian nurses did their best it seems, but are not used to being awake and on duty all night long. The conditions were some of the best in the country but still horrid by our standards. There was no running water, toilets or even urinals available at night to he sickest patients. Glucometers were very scarce. basic supplies were not there…But the patients were so grateful, and their families amazing. The staff were open to learning and thankful for the help and guidance. The Haitians are wonderful people and I cannot wait to return.
      Ann Ferguson

    • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100002854059970 Hannah Bee

      I have to agree strongly with the post below.

      I spent a little over two months in Haiti during the summer of 2010, the summer right after the earthquake. Most of my time was spent in a small clinic/orphanage in Port de Paix Haiti that was run by the Sisters of Charity. I also had the opportunity to explore Port-au-Prince for about a week and probably the most pivotal time during my summer was the two weeks I spent on the Island of La Gonave with a group of doctors and medical students from Wayne State.

      The lessons I learned from my time there are endless and will continue to grow. I believe there will always be a struggle between understanding a different culture no matter where you travel.

      My experience taught me two of the most important lessons of my life so far.

      The first is that you cannot let the cultural differences of a society scare you away. At times things are scary, and uncertain. Many times everything around you is completely void of being understood, but this should be viewed as only a minor aspect to the experience you are having. I learned to step back and take in situations such as these, not necessarily reacting immediately, but taking the time to adjust and think about the appropriate way to act. Too often during my time in Haiti I experienced people who were unable to accept cultural differences for various reasons of being scared or simply unable to understand a situation. This in turn kept them from further experiencing and accepting the culture they were currently a part of and in some cases caused people to completely alienate themselves from trying to understand the culture at all. In a few extreme cases, this led individuals to completely leave the country and return home. Just because an idea or a reaction is different from the way you would live your day to day life does not mean it is wrong. It took me time to develop this mindset, but after some time and more experiences, I learned to simply “be” in the culture, not to judge or try and change it because of differences.

      My second lesson taught me that Haiti is a place I will continue returning to for the rest of my life. I learned that I want to work somewhere in the future that is lacking in the basic medical care many take for granted here in the states. While I am not sure if I will work in Haiti forever, I know I will return there many times in the future, just like I did again this past summer after my initial summer stay in Haiti. I learned that I can work along side people without judging and with acceptance providing a service where it is needed. I plan to work along those from the culture and be guided by them regarding what it is I need to do, for they are the ones who know best. Those who were born into something and live it every day.

      I encourage everyone to open themselves up to the possibility of having an experience such as mine. You never know, it could change your life.   

       

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1370977414 Meghan McLean

    I will be going to Haiti to volunteer at a birth clinic (MamaBaby Haiti) early next year. I found this article very insightful.

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1370977414 Meghan McLean

    I will be going to Haiti to volunteer at a birth clinic (MamaBaby Haiti) early next year. I found this article very insightful.

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  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1370977414 Meghan McLean

    I will be going to Haiti to volunteer at a birth clinic (MamaBaby Haiti) early next year. I found this article very insightful.

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1370977414 Meghan McLean

    I will be going to Haiti to volunteer at a birth clinic (MamaBaby Haiti) early next year. I found this article very insightful.

  • Anonymous

    I am a Physical Therapist with a specific interest in Amputee Rehabilitation.  I went to the Dominican Republic 4 weeks after the 2010 earthquake.  I was involved with 11 kids aged 6-15, who were transported from Haiti to the Dominican Republic by an organization called Children of the Nations.   6 of the kids had amputations, and the others had fractures and crush injuries.  It was an amazing experience to spend 10 days with these wonderful, non complaining and appreciative people.  We were a team of 5 people from Seattle–2 Physicians, 2 PTs and a nurse.  We were fortunate to have a group of counsellors with us from San Diego.  We developed an amazing bond really quickly, with each other and with the families, who came with the kids.  We provided the medical care and the families did the cooking, cleaning etc.  It was an extremely exhausting 10 days, both physically and emotionally, but also amazingly rewarding.   Our little medical team truly did team medicine without the restrictions of Hippa, ICD 9 codes, time limitations etc.  We just did what was needed.  We had limited supplies, and the supply room was pretty chaotic, but every day we managed to find something new that we could put to use.  I had brought balloons and theraband with me, and we had a ball or 2 for balance training.  A wonderful volunteer built me parallel bars within 3 days of our arrival–using supplies and tools he found.   We were able to move the kids to the next phase of their rehab, and were very sad to hand them over to the next group of volunteers.  We have been able to maintain contact with most of the kids, and they seem to be doing well, despite their horrible injuries.  I am attaching a link to an interview I did at the local TV station.http://www.q13fox.com/videobeta/3aabfef9-634e-4e86-8aae-393496dd2a3b/News/Haiti-Two-Months-After-The-Quake
    I am very happy to hear that there is still an interest in Haiti.  These families live under very trying circumstances, but somehow they always have smiles on their faces.

  • Anonymous

    It is wonderful to know so many Americans are affected by Haiti and its beautiful people, are interested in helping and willing to undergo terrible conditions to do so.

    But PLEASE – consider what will have the greatest LONG-TERM effect, what will empower Haitians.  Yes, Haitians need help from volunteers in clinics, hopsitals, orphanges.  But the many resources it requires to make this happen need to be balanced by money we spend enabling Haitians to learn to provide health care for themselves.  A mere $3,000 a year educates a bright young Haitian at the only
     4-year baccalaureate nursing school in the country.  Few Haitians can afford this.  They CAN use our help in becoming competent nurses able to treat, educate, immunize, prevent.  Consider the cost to send a team of U.S. professionals to Haiti for one week (even volunteering their time).  How many nurses could we educate for Haiti? 
    Haiti Nursing Foundation

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